kieran11

so I don't miss Tucson. at all
I miss approximately... lets see...
6 of you :)
that's all

this year was a large waste of my time apparently, but hey, who knows...
maybe something was worth it
I made a ton of new friends that I don't particularly care about!
WOOT WOOT

to those of you I DO miss. I actually miss you a lot
next year will suck without you :(
Goodnight friends

I really don't lol

What the hell? Seriously?
I want to forget it
But I can't!!!! Damn this lol
:)
Well, at least I have the musical to look forward to. Still 3 days away though!
I do love me some singers ;)

is it jealousy cuz of me?
or is she more jealous of the other one?
which is it? the friend or the potential whatever lol :)

i suppose the real questions here are
who cares
does it really matter anyways?

You're fun like a carrot dipped in ranch;
I wish I could sit with you on a tree branch.
You accuse me of stealing cell phones,
But I still love you and your awesome ringtones.
I would sing to you all proud and out loud,
When I see your face, I think of a cloud.
I look at your puppies, sitting on your computer
Between you and Matt, I think you are cuter.
Andrew is clearly on crack, he is jingling keys
He is your neighbor, go egg his house please.
And with this I'll leave with one last fun thought,
I love you forever, A super whole lot.

I am always right. <<< Katie 
I am never right <<<< Kieran

"Does your girlfriend have a livejournal?" -Katie
"Nay"-Kieran
"So I can make fun of how she's NOT in the EIGTH GRADE?"-Katie
This is so boring. I can't stand to type what the fuck everyone is saying. In fact, I can't type very well in the first place. I bet no one will read this. Except LUPO. -Katie

I want to go to prom ='[ I could totally get my boogie on with Katie, buuuuut noooooo! Instead I'm going to be headbutting some stupid fage from Soreno because I'll be taking out my anger that I don't get to go to prom with Katie!!! She so wants me ;) -Kieran

THAT'S WHAT SHE SAID.

I am in love with John Krasinski and even though... oh wait, I mean Jim Halpert... and even though he's like 28 (which isn't far off from my current beau) I want him to take me to prom. Is that a crime?

I SUCK AT TIHS.

THAT'S WHAT SHE SAID.

"What is all this white stuff...."
THAT'S WHAT SHE SAID. 

Well played Katie
well, I think we should go watch family guy
Peace!

Kireeean & Kayteee <3 Jim

I usually am, I really try to be! So help me out! make me positive still people
I don't get to go to new york. it's still 10,000 a year even with my 30,000 I've got in scholarships to that school

NAU is free for me
I don't really wanna go to NAU...
But I'm gonna have to.

GRAWR!
Oh well, life goes on lol

I believe I'm having the wrong reaction to all this
I feel only more bulletproof
I was told by cops that there were approximately 7 times in that crash where I should've died...
Yet I have some scrapes on my head and some sore muscles, nothing more

I either have a purpose still or I am the single luckiest son of a bitch alive

haha why don't people just talk about what's bothering them or how they feel?
What is with everyone and hiding everything?

In the immortal words of Sam, why can't people just be straightforward?

Blah!
-Kieran :)

Fuck soccer lol
I hate this game
Even if I did have a really good weekend.
Make it aaaaaall the way to the finals to lose. Sounds about right

Especially when you play all 280 minutes possible and play well... it sucks!
Life is so cruel!!! :'( haha oh well!

Ta,
Kieran

 I'm not crazy! I'm just a little unwell... :)

It was pointed out to me today that I am dramatic too. I love how I don't even realize it, yet completely agree when confronted.
I'm an odd child. I wish I knew what was going on in life, but I guess the surprise is half the fun.

Do any of you ever wonder when if you'll have the kind of love that lovebirds do?
The permanent kind. The kind that die shortly after the other one because they've simply lost the will to live.

I make girls fall in love with me all the time. For some reason, when people like me... they seem to really like me...
But still... I can't help but wonder if I can ever make anyone feel like that about me, or if there's anyone out there that can make me feel like that for them!

Haha I'm such a girl. I'm ok with it though. Me and my rainbow pina colada air freshener will live with ourselves.

In the meantime, I have no clue what's going on with certain stuff as I'm being treated very coldly, but as I've said before. Life goes on.

Plus, since yesterday was so amazing and wonderful and liberating, I suppose it's only fair that today would be depressing, no matter how well I played in soccer ;).

And so, I bid you all goodnight and hope you're having wonderful weekends!

Truly,
Kieran 

I literally just posted one, but oh well
Fuck cell phones! People keep texting and then you're just thinking "well shit... it's not her"

That's all lol :)

I think I jump to far too many of them
But it's ok
:)
Today was a shitty day, but I really like the direction my life is headed, so who cares!

Goodnight all, keep dreaming :)

Love,
Kieran

PS. I can't wait to see you tomorrow

I just realized I've only been using this to say depressing or extremely happy things. How about, hi guys! I really hope you're all having a good day :)

Sincerely, 
Kieran

I decided not to go to school. I called up my friend said hey. Do you wanna go to school? No, they replied. and so... we didn't.
What should we do i wondered? Phoenix sounds good :). So we drive to phoenix. and drive. and drive. and drive some more. so we finally get there, and we get lost. We may be retarded but I'm not gonna lie, we got lost. Those 101 and 202 loops just fuck you up! So then after an hour of driving around aimlessly, enjoying our time, we decided we should go home. so we do. and it was amazing. my dad thought he was gonna catch us doing something wrong, until we brought him chili dogs and he forgot he was mad at us. It was amazing. I feel really refreshed! I had to get away from all the drama that was not there last Monday. Now it seems that everything I do is being documented by people and I'm being judged constantly, which sucks, because some of the stories are being blown way out of proportion. Oh well.

I also have this weird thing... I'm very optimistic and confident. And while I do think people like me in general, I have to wonder if I ever make any close friends. I think I have in the past week, he seems to be exactly like me, but even then, I'm still wary. It surprised me how much I opened up to him and it's weird. But I always wonder when I miss school, if anyone really misses me. I mean, I'm sure someone notices and goes, hmmm... Kieran's not here. But is anyone genuinely affected? I feel as though I have about a bajillion fake friends, and maybe only one or two Great Friends. Unfortunately, I did just lose one, because we broke up. I would love to become best buds with her, but I'm realistic, I know it won't happen... 

I wonder this, because I usually text people when they are gone because I feel genuinely concerned that they could be hurt or unhappy, and I only got one text today from someone wondering where I was, and even then, it came with the sole phrase "ditcher" lol. So while it made me laugh, it also made me wonder if ANYONE truly misses me. Plus... I have to wonder with all my friend from California. I mean only one contacts me on his own, one of my few good freinds... But I honestly thought I had stronger relationships with more people out there and I don't think anyone even notices I'm missing anymore...

Wow I got off topic. This is weird, I've never really kept a journal before, and I thought I had a great day... but now I realize the title is simply ironic...

So...
Goodnight all


(Someone might remember this, and it certainly applies now!) Nymph, in thy orisons, Be all my sins remember'd.

Fuck waiting. It's too much of a gamble, and I'm impatient...

However, I am very much in the mood for some ice cream. I think I need to go get some :).


Bu Bye! 

So I don't know what to do. Part of me wants to sit back, let things happen and have them play out. Part of me wants to gather sympathy and throw myself a pity party I realize don't deserve compared to some people. Yet another part of wants to go wild and just ignore rational thought. The last part of me thinks waiting and rebuilding mental harmony could be worth something special, but then, even that is uncertain. I'm not sure what to do and I feel kinda funny. Optimistic but not hopeful :). Haha sounds weird, but I'm pretty sure that given enough time, all things can fail if I wait, yet I'm optimistic because even if they do, new things will come. Unfortunately, doesn't mean I want to lose the things that will sound good soon, so I bid you all a goodnight and hope you have a happy tomorrow :).

Sincerely, Kieran


(An eerily beautiful quote) If music be the food of love, play on. Give me excess of it, that surfeiting, the appetitie may sicken, and so die.

well, i wonder what being single is like.
it's been so long...
haha but still. i'd like to have someone to talk to right now...

gah, get my mental vibes and call!!!!!


-sincerely Kieran 

PS. Dustin, thank you :) glad you were there this weekend

It seemed entertaining, and since I've begun to do nothing in journalism all day long, this seemed like a good use of my time. Even if Katie did steal it and start doing everything for me! :)